Thursday, February 25, 2010

I like it slow

It was like enlightening – I really don’t like to be pushed! I like it slow…
Slow fashion, slow art, slow cloth… Slow process. Whether it is the process of making or the process of thinking about it.
Any idea is like a baby who grows in his mother’s womb for a certain time until he is let out to the world. (Yet there are brainstorm ideas as well that are brilliant. But this is fast only on conscious level as any enlightening is a result of a long process hidden in the subconsciousness).
I’ve been told many times that my felt items seem to have special aura or soul, story behind them. I guess this comes from being slow with what I do and giving time for that soul of an item grow and develop.
I like taking my time for thinking about felt, sometimes even months or years. And though fast results are tempting I prefer it slow.
I’ve been thinking about this tunic for a boy for several months before I started making it. Though  the result might look simple, it really had a deeper meaning for me.
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And this piece took about 3 months to dye with plants the way I wanted it. Another few months of thinking of using it in felting.
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And this neck piece took 2 Summers of constant exposure to the Sun until it was bleached as white as I wanted it!
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The bleacher would have done it in a day or so. But it wouldn’t have put any good energy or soul to the cloth…

Though I like being on Etsy, at some point it is out of my comfort zone as there’s so much pressure – list list list, upload, give new works every day if you don’t want to drown in the ocean of all items listed there. And it’s simply not my way of working. I am not baking pancakes… When I feel pressure (and again – it’s not the same thing as having to work for a thrilling project with a deadline that actually mobilizes all your inner processes, insights and effects the actual making with adrenaline), I start to rebel or shut myself inside and feel paralyzed, not being able to do a thing until I cure myself from any thoughts of pressure. Creative ideas are something like a fox and the Little Prince trying to domesticate each other, just a little step towards each other in a day.
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Kartais imi ir suvoki staiga – man tikrai nepatinka spaudimas! Patinka lėtumas…
Lėta mada, menas, lėtos medžiagos… Lėtas procesas. Ne tik lėtas darymo procesas, bet ir lėtas apmąstymo procesas.
Kiekviena idėja yra tarsi vaisius, augantis įsčiose tam tikrą laiką, kol yra paleidžiamas į pasaulį. (Žinoma, yra ir genialių žaibiškų idėjų-nušvitimų. Visgi jos yra greitos tik sąmoningame lygyje. Kiekvienas nušvitimas yra ilgo pasąmoninio proceso rezultatas).
Daug kartų teko girdėti, jog mano veltinio darbai turi ypatingą aurą, sielą, pasislėpusią juose istoriją. Tikriausiai tas jausmas gimsta iš lėtumo tame, ką darau – laiko, per kurį kiekvienas darbas vystosi ir auga.
Man reikia laiko galvojimui apie tai, ką aš darau. Kartais net mėnesių ar metų. Ir nors greiti rezultatai visuomet viliojantys, paprastai renkuosi lėtumą.
Daug mėnesių galvojau apie baltą komunijai skirtą tuniką vienam berniukui prieš pradėdama ją daryti. Nors galutinis rezultatas gali atrodyti paprastas, visgi man jame slypi daug gilesnė prasmė.
Dažymas augalais kartais trunka ir 3 mėnesius, kol išgauni tokius subtilius tonų perėjimus, kokių norisi. Dar keli mėnesiai skiriami apmąstymams, kokiam veltinio objektui skirtas tas medžiagos gabalėlis.
Išbalinti balikliu turbūt galima per parą, tačiau kartais prireikia 2 saulėtų vasarų, kad saulės išbalintas šilkas ir vilna įgytų tą teigiamą energiją, dvasią, kurią, tikiu, sugeria iš saulės…
Buvimas Etsyje labai dviprasmiškas. Man patinka siūlyti savo darbus Etsy-je, tačiau iš kitos pusės nori to ar nenori, patiri spaudimą kelti vis naujus darbus, atnaujinti senus vien tam, kad nepaskęstum Etsy’io pasiūlos jūroje. Tai nėra mano stilius. Aš nekepu blynų…  Jusdama spaudimą (nemaišykite to su kokiu nors įkvepiančiu projektu, turinčiu terminus, kuris išties tik mobilizuoja visus vidinius procesus, įžvalgas bei įjungia antrą kvėpavimą dirbant), pradedu maištauti arba užsisklendžiu savyje ir jaučiuosi paralyžuota, negalinti nieko daryti tol, kol neišsilaižau visų minčių apie spaudimą. Kūrybiškos mintys yra kaip lapė ir Mažasis Princas, bandantys prisijaukinti vienas kitą pamažu, po mažą žingsnelį vienas kito link.

7 comments:

Lainie said...

beautiful!

Dawn of LaTouchables said...

I also like to work slowly. I work slow. Too slow to make a lot of money. But I feel that it turns work into soul-object, when you put time and energy into it. I love your pieces...that neckpiece that took two summers to bleach--bellisimo!!!!! I love your work, and I enjoy looking at it!

Joei Rhode Island said...

Slow is a mind set that, for me, allows things to brew and mature until I can work.
Your work shines from within...it is obviously done with great tenderness and slow loveing thought.

Sarah said...

This post is like a breath of fresh air, to me. Welcome the time. Allow your mind to saturate itself with imagination that is so important. Your work, it's amazing. It is worth waiting for. If your feeling pressure step back. Let yourself heal and then start back slowly. Every piece, I personally, can feel and see the emotion you have put into it. That very emotion is what makes your work so spectacular. Like the garden, you nurture and nurture...taking pride in it.
Then, the harvest. The presentation. The fulfillment and connection between you and earth.
It makes sense, letting yourself be "the other"... Thank you for sharing.
Sarah Megan

Margo said...

I just found this page and I can really connect with your thoughts - whenever I create a piece, part of my inner self is incorporated into it and what is going on in my life at that moment - you have such a lovely way of expressing feelings and thoughts and translating them into lovely, soft work. I think you must be a lovely and kind hearted and thoughtful person - and a poet as well!

Vilte said...

Thank you all for your wonderful insights and empathy in being slow. It's an amazing feeling when people share the same senses and feelings, and thoughts, when they can relate, is it?
Margo, I am like every person - have my devils and angels inside. But I believe that it is good when all the devils are tempered inside and all the good blooms in your creativity. And I don't mean expressing only good and positive things, I mean expressing good or bad things with a positive aura..

Sheila said...

Wow, I can really relate to this! thanks, you made my day <3

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